Lately I feel like I've just been stuck. There's some enormous weight I can feel in my chest and on my back and I have no idea what it is. It seems like there's a void too, and I can't fill it with anything, not even music and that makes me so unbearably unhappy and depressed. I wish I knew what was happening, there's something wrong and I can't find the problem.
I feel like I'm drifting away from music and it's breaking my heart. I love music. More than anything else in the world. If there was anything in this world that I ever truly knew, it would be music. Nothing effects me more emotionally, psychologically and physically, nothing. And yet, all the songs I used to know so well and love so much, don't seem to be enough for me. How can this be? I don't understand. Everything I want, everything I am, is invested in music and now it's like I've turned my back on music and I don't know why.
Music; the sounds and the lyrics that used to make me so happy, have lost their affect. I'm so lost, I'm drowning, in a world that I used to know so well, in a world that was my own, that was created by me, myself and I. There must be something wrong.
Nothing makes me happy anymore. I feel like I'm just slipping away. I'm stuck in this emptiness and it's consuming me and no matter how hard I fight, it just won't let go.
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