How do I know I can come and give to you, love with no warning and find you alone...

This weekend was interesting, definitely fun, but I kept thinking about a number of things that lately, have just left me so disappointed.

It's hard sometimes. You think you know people. You think that you really know someone pretty well and I semi-subconsciously setup expectations for them. Everything is awesome for a while, they are the people you see them as, and then, you come to find out who they really are. They break all the expectations you had for them and the person you thought you knew, is no longer there. It's someone strange you're not accustomed to, someone you do not like. There are brief moments when the person you thought they were is there, but they are brief and only brief. You try your best to hold on, in hopes that the person you thought they were may return, only to face disappointment. In your head, you know it's best to let go of them, but in your heart, you just want that person back. When faced with this dilemma, what do you do? I haven't been able to figure it out. This is the third time this has happened (with a drastic change in who the person is). The first two times left me broken hearted, the third time has just left me disgusted. I'm still holding on, but only because it's all I know how to do. I hope something changes, or that they change.

Anyway.

I think it's a little bit humorous, I tried to convince myself that it would go away. I tried to convince myself that I didn't feel that way anymore. Who was I kidding? I don't even know why I did it. I don't think it was for myself. No, it wasn't, it was so that she would leave me alone. I'm sure she has constant worry for someone else's sake. I've talked to him about things concerning her, nothing is going to happen. I'm pretty sure of it. He's impossible, but I feel like I'm the one that has to break him. We'll see what happens.